all speculation but...i think the herniated disc is definitely showing signs of moving back into place. every day, it seems like there is less and less discomfort/pain when i try to lye down flat. i think i am a few days away from being able to completely lye down flat without any discomfort. which i hope it means that i'll be able to stand up straight. it will still mean that i'll still won't be able to walk normally until the disc moves further back. and after that i'll definitely have to limit my physical activity for another 3 months....so if i do go go the gym at all in the next 3-4 months, it will be strictly off limits on anything that puts pressure to my lower back. i'll probably just work on cardio and body fat loss.....cause i definitely have gained some during the injury and before while i was bulking up. i'll probably walk to school mondays and wednesdays for health reasons.



as for the injury that has already taken up 6 weeks of my life, and possibly a few weeks more, i've been wondering if this was going to be a life altering experience. and so far, to be honest, other than being stuck in bed all day, i have been able to keep a relatively good attitude towards all this. i have not fell into depression to where i thought i had to make a journey to crawl out of a cave, raise my fist into the air, and swear that from now on, i'm going to stop to smell the f'ing roses. its not that i don't miss doing things that i've been deprived of....going outisde....walking...hiking...hanging out...working out....just about everything that isn't tv/computer related. i guess its not a bad thing i'm doing well...relatively speaking. friends taking time to visit definitely has played a big part in keeping my spirits up. and i shouldn't rely on a foreign intervention to make me appreciate more things in life. if i want to bring on this change, its something i'll have to do myself, injury or no injury.



the weird thing is that you would think that lying in bed for a month or two would seem like an eternity. but that is not what it has felt like for me. it just feels like a slightly extended weekend. and when i do make it back to work and going outside, i think i'll be able to pick up without missing a beat......the downside to it is that i would have used up all my sick and vacation hours without it feeling like i got any kind of rest or vacation at all. being in bed doesn't mean that i have been getting good rest...because i have stopped taking that cyclobenzaprine hcl that was supposed to help me sleep with discomfort. without taking it, i am able to sleep 4-7 hours a night probably tossing and turing probably the whole night. i stopped taking it because i would wake up in some uncomfortable position and have aggravated the inflammation by morning. its only when i stopped taking this the inflammation subsided and i was finally able to make some progress. so you can see i have taken all the time off without any benefits at all. oh well. i shold stop complaining...my injury, even though it is a long term injury, there are far worse injuries things that can happen to a person.